Looooong time has gone and it's already April 2014! Happy new year to you all ,BTW.
My last cycle of IVF obviously didn't work. It was sad but I didn't have my expectation high knowing many have tried it for many and long time,so it was OK.
I am not day 7 of my new cycle. I'm going to have another days of blood test and one embryo transfer around day 17 I think...
I have stop taking multi vitamins since I feel sick in my stomach. I still feel great so hopefully it doesn't affect on the success of IVF. We'll see.
Sunday, 13 April 2014
Monday, 21 October 2013
The verdict of the first trial of IVF
It was the last Friday afternoon, 12 days after the embryo transfer, after the blood test in the morning, I was told that the implantation was not a success. I kind a knew because there was no sign of pregnancy like tenderness in my breasts or change on taste, but I was still trying to be hopeful and believing 50 % of the chance until the verdict was announced. But I have to admit that my guts was telling me that unfortunately. Well, even though I was so aware that it's always 50 % of chance of success and failure and I was ready for both good and bad news, still disappointing.
I know it's not the end. We have got three more embryos frozen ready to be transferred. But I have decided to have a bit of break before next one. I realized that my heart is more fragile than I thought. I think my heart will get hit deeply if it failed again. So, I want to make sure I feel that I'm up for it before I go on next one.
In the meantime, I will do my best to create the best condition for welcoming the next embryo. Keep taking Noni Juice and veggie juice, improve body circulation, feeling happy and positive= laugh and love a lot...!
I know it's not the end. We have got three more embryos frozen ready to be transferred. But I have decided to have a bit of break before next one. I realized that my heart is more fragile than I thought. I think my heart will get hit deeply if it failed again. So, I want to make sure I feel that I'm up for it before I go on next one.
In the meantime, I will do my best to create the best condition for welcoming the next embryo. Keep taking Noni Juice and veggie juice, improve body circulation, feeling happy and positive= laugh and love a lot...!
Sunday, 6 October 2013
IVF Day 82 Embryo Transfer !!!
OK. It's been a while so I don't know where to start. But main thing to write is my embryo transfer is done...!!!
On Tuesday last week, I was advised that I was ovulating and my embryo transfer is going to be on Sunday. It had to wait 5 days to match the days that took for my egg's fertilization before freezing. I was also told to take Pessaries which is a stuff shaped like a tampon to improve the condition of my womb to increase the chance of implantation from Friday.
I followed the instructions the rest of the week and the day came, Sunday. My husband came with me and we met the embryologist who had informed the state of my embryo on the phone. She told us my embryo is thawed well and it is at 10 cells stage and the cells are nicely together which is the ideal condition for the transfer. I was with my husband in the Theater, the operation room. We were told it was very easy procedure like pep smear and it was. it only took about 15 min but I had to rest on the bed for half an hour to let it settle.I will have blood test which will determine my pregnancy.
I'm feeling ... quite relaxed. In fact, I feel that I should be more excited. I was more excited when I found out the success of egg fertilization. I think I'm trying not have the hope too big in case it didn't go well. I've done everything I could so I will just believe the will of universe.
On Tuesday last week, I was advised that I was ovulating and my embryo transfer is going to be on Sunday. It had to wait 5 days to match the days that took for my egg's fertilization before freezing. I was also told to take Pessaries which is a stuff shaped like a tampon to improve the condition of my womb to increase the chance of implantation from Friday.
I followed the instructions the rest of the week and the day came, Sunday. My husband came with me and we met the embryologist who had informed the state of my embryo on the phone. She told us my embryo is thawed well and it is at 10 cells stage and the cells are nicely together which is the ideal condition for the transfer. I was with my husband in the Theater, the operation room. We were told it was very easy procedure like pep smear and it was. it only took about 15 min but I had to rest on the bed for half an hour to let it settle.I will have blood test which will determine my pregnancy.
I'm feeling ... quite relaxed. In fact, I feel that I should be more excited. I was more excited when I found out the success of egg fertilization. I think I'm trying not have the hope too big in case it didn't go well. I've done everything I could so I will just believe the will of universe.
Friday, 20 September 2013
Day 92 on BSP and 65 on IVF
Long waited! Finally my second periods has come and it means we can finally move on to the next step of IVF, embryo transfer. I have reported the clinic on my day 1 of this period and they advised me that the blood test will start from 26th to monitor my hormone and see the timing of ovulation. Pretty excited!
I've kept drinking Noni J and fresh carrot and apple juice which I make every morning. I haven't really feel significant difference. But I think I feel less tired, I used to need a nap or rest in late afternoon which I haven't had for a while. It also seem to be affecting my bowel. I have had constipation for long time but my routine to go to toilet is much regular now which is awesome! However, it can be due to having the veggie left overs from making juice with yogurt. I hate wasting in my nature and the waste of juice seems to content lots of fiber so I started eating them as my breakfast. Well, whatever reason is, it's perfectly working!
I also have Goji berry. I discover the taste of dry Goji itself is not my cup of tea but I like it better when it's hydrated. So, I have it as Goji tea. To put two tea spoon in a hot water and drink and eat berries. It's my late night drink instead of coffee or tea lately.
It's about 3 months since I started my Body Shape Program and the time is over. My weight is around 50 kg now so I couldn't achieved my goal 47kg. I have to say there was an great interruption, getting on to IVF which I could not avoid and my priority has shifted on to. Even though, the weight is one of the indicator, what really counts is the shape and I do to my body appears on my body shape I believe. I will keep doing things like walking with my dog, exercise with videos on YouTube and fasting to maintain my shape.
I'm going to stop making record of my body shape program at this point.
I've kept drinking Noni J and fresh carrot and apple juice which I make every morning. I haven't really feel significant difference. But I think I feel less tired, I used to need a nap or rest in late afternoon which I haven't had for a while. It also seem to be affecting my bowel. I have had constipation for long time but my routine to go to toilet is much regular now which is awesome! However, it can be due to having the veggie left overs from making juice with yogurt. I hate wasting in my nature and the waste of juice seems to content lots of fiber so I started eating them as my breakfast. Well, whatever reason is, it's perfectly working!
I also have Goji berry. I discover the taste of dry Goji itself is not my cup of tea but I like it better when it's hydrated. So, I have it as Goji tea. To put two tea spoon in a hot water and drink and eat berries. It's my late night drink instead of coffee or tea lately.
It's about 3 months since I started my Body Shape Program and the time is over. My weight is around 50 kg now so I couldn't achieved my goal 47kg. I have to say there was an great interruption, getting on to IVF which I could not avoid and my priority has shifted on to. Even though, the weight is one of the indicator, what really counts is the shape and I do to my body appears on my body shape I believe. I will keep doing things like walking with my dog, exercise with videos on YouTube and fasting to maintain my shape.
I'm going to stop making record of my body shape program at this point.
Tuesday, 3 September 2013
Day 73 on BSP and Day 47 on IVF
It's almost two weeks since last post.
My IVF is now on hold.I'm excited with the fact that I'm one step closer to pregnancy. I feel my body is back to normal and have treated my body with extra care. I'm ready for receiving the egg of our baby!
Talking about extra care, I have bought Noni Juice and Goji berries. Noni is a tree which grows in the pasific island, Southeast Asia, Australia and India and the juice is made with all components of the tree the fruits, stems, flowers, bark and roots. The list of its effect goes like immune booster, digestive stimulant, anti-oxidant, antibacterial, etc...it's pretty amazing. It's not pleasant to drink at all but only drinking 20ml enhances my overall body condition. Of course I take it happily everyday. In fact, I have noticed that I have been feeling much refreshed more energetic lately and my facial skin tone is better and shape is less puffy. I think it's too early to determine Noni Juice's credit, but so far, it seems working well in me. About Goji berries. I bought for snack. I haven't really research the benefits well enough, but I just did and stunned with them! Wow! Again, it has long history and lists of benefits such and anti-oxidant and anti inflammatory and high in Vitamin C, iron and protein, calcium and so on. It's much much better in taste than Noni J so I'm gonna have more Goji berries to top my goodies in my body!
Another thing which could be working for my noticeable differences in my body conditions are "one day fasting" that I do once a week that is to limit intake calories under 500 kcal. Fasting is also claimed to improve immune system and internal body functions by giving hardworking organs a short break. Improving the function also helps detox unwanted stuff so that goodies is absolved well in the body. I have done much more hard-core fasting before and know its amazing effects but couldn't continue because it requires a huge commitment. However, this moderate version is so much easier to do so that I can continue to maintain my body efficiency. Actually it's my fasting day today so good to write this to reinforce my positive attitude toward fasting.
Another thing which could be working for my noticeable differences in my body conditions are "one day fasting" that I do once a week that is to limit intake calories under 500 kcal. Fasting is also claimed to improve immune system and internal body functions by giving hardworking organs a short break. Improving the function also helps detox unwanted stuff so that goodies is absolved well in the body. I have done much more hard-core fasting before and know its amazing effects but couldn't continue because it requires a huge commitment. However, this moderate version is so much easier to do so that I can continue to maintain my body efficiency. Actually it's my fasting day today so good to write this to reinforce my positive attitude toward fasting.
Instead of using the weight training machine, now I do cardio exercise with YouTube video. It's 10 min video but I do two or three videos from the series. It's more enjoyable and easier than going gym or using machine upstairs which is always at least one hour long work which requires big commitment. I can do it even in the kitchen in my spare time while I'm cooking. With this easiness, I can imagine continuing this pattern easily which is a key to bring better outcome in long term. No fuss and no big commitment! I love it!
It's no doubt that to do something good for my body is nice but not easy to continue sometimes and it has always been challenge for me. And I know I'm not alone. I think I've found good routine that suits the current condition of mine. Hopefully, I can report good update with my new routine.
It's no doubt that to do something good for my body is nice but not easy to continue sometimes and it has always been challenge for me. And I know I'm not alone. I think I've found good routine that suits the current condition of mine. Hopefully, I can report good update with my new routine.
Friday, 23 August 2013
Day 62 on BSP & Day 36 on IVF
OH! Big gap again since the last post! 16 days ?! Where did the time disappear.. ?
Ah, I know! I had a pretty fun week last week. Monday evening, I was at a Bollywood themed ball hosted by the association my husband works for. It's always good fun to be part of. What's interesting for me when it comes to attending a ball is seeing the way guests, especially ladies, dress up according to the theme. However, for this one, I enjoyed dressing up myself as much as I see and learn from others. I decided not to wear Sari, Indian traditional formal dress because of its costs, $300 or over if you want one with beautiful and decorative sequences and the frequency of wearing it if I got one and to create Indian feel with something more practical with items which are versatile so that I can wear with other combinations even after the party. I wore a two piece dress, one shoulder coral top and golden orange long skirt with matching sash, a scarf with fringe which happened to have the golden orange colour in the print, lots of gold jewelries made in India and, my favorite item of the night, an head piece which I remodeled one of my earring made by myself. It was so much fun planning the costume and seeing people's reaction. Some people I've known didn't even recognized me! Of course, some wore Sari and they were absolutely beautiful, but I was quite happy with my unique styling. The ball room, food and entertainment, all was spectacular! It was fantastic night. And it was followed with another good news in the weekend. I appeared on the social page on the local paper with the groceries, who wear what type of stuff, which made me even happier with my work. It's nice to be recognized!
Then, I flew to Queensland to see my friends in Gold Coast and family in Brisbane. I stayed QT Gold Coast in Surfers Paradise. It was in a convenience location and very pop,colorful modern hotel which reminded me of W brand. I had a ocean view from my room and the view brought so much memories of Hawaii where I lived for about a year six years ago. I caught up with one of my friend who i hadn't seen for two and half years. We browse the city to decide a place for dinner for a while and we came across the evening market along the beach. It was about one kilo meter long and the products were fresh cookie, crafts and clothes locally made. It was great spot for tourist to pick souvenirs. I bought a beautiful long one-piece dress and a jumper from a local designer. I loved both pieces and it's nice to have clothes not from commercial retailer so that I know no one in Perth would wear them. Another friend of mine joined us later the night and it was good fun night. They told me how different the people in GC is compare to other city in Aus. I thought people in Perth were pretty relaxed and casual but apparently the people in GC are in another level and safety is also an issue there. It sounded that they were struggling to get accustomed to it. It made me more appreciative of my life in Perth. Another thing I noticed there was the emptiness of the city. I've been to GC once four years ago and my impression was it was very much like Hawaii. Pretty beach with palm trees, high-rise condominiums, relaxed but colorful and gritter sprinkled in the air in the city with buzz of people. However, the city was very quiet this time. Although, I knew it was not in season, seeing one of the most popular destination in Aus for international tourists with such emptiness was a bit shock for me.
After interesting stay in GC, I took a train going back to Brisbane airport to catch up with my hubby flying from Sydney then went to my hubby's parents place to spend two night with them.We used to visit them once or twice a year, but since their youngest son passed away early this year, I determined to try to visit them more often. It got me think to show our love and support for them as much as we can and to have close relationship with whole family member. We had lovely time together at home and a family dinner with the younger brother's family one night. It was really nice,too.
My IVF process is on hold at the moment due to having to give my body time to get back to normal for embryo transfer. I feel my body is pretty normal now. I recently get back to the once a week fasting and light exercise. My weight is now 49.0kg so got back pretty much.I had my first period three weeks ago which was unusually early and now I'm waiting the second period which will be the cycle for my embryo transfer. Actually, I was planing to visit my friend in Adelaide in early September but now I don't know if I can do it anymore because the timing of my period is unpredictable. People suggest me to relax as much as I can so I should drop it and not even thinking about going away...
Anyhow, all is good :)
Happy weekend for everyone!
Ah, I know! I had a pretty fun week last week. Monday evening, I was at a Bollywood themed ball hosted by the association my husband works for. It's always good fun to be part of. What's interesting for me when it comes to attending a ball is seeing the way guests, especially ladies, dress up according to the theme. However, for this one, I enjoyed dressing up myself as much as I see and learn from others. I decided not to wear Sari, Indian traditional formal dress because of its costs, $300 or over if you want one with beautiful and decorative sequences and the frequency of wearing it if I got one and to create Indian feel with something more practical with items which are versatile so that I can wear with other combinations even after the party. I wore a two piece dress, one shoulder coral top and golden orange long skirt with matching sash, a scarf with fringe which happened to have the golden orange colour in the print, lots of gold jewelries made in India and, my favorite item of the night, an head piece which I remodeled one of my earring made by myself. It was so much fun planning the costume and seeing people's reaction. Some people I've known didn't even recognized me! Of course, some wore Sari and they were absolutely beautiful, but I was quite happy with my unique styling. The ball room, food and entertainment, all was spectacular! It was fantastic night. And it was followed with another good news in the weekend. I appeared on the social page on the local paper with the groceries, who wear what type of stuff, which made me even happier with my work. It's nice to be recognized!
Then, I flew to Queensland to see my friends in Gold Coast and family in Brisbane. I stayed QT Gold Coast in Surfers Paradise. It was in a convenience location and very pop,colorful modern hotel which reminded me of W brand. I had a ocean view from my room and the view brought so much memories of Hawaii where I lived for about a year six years ago. I caught up with one of my friend who i hadn't seen for two and half years. We browse the city to decide a place for dinner for a while and we came across the evening market along the beach. It was about one kilo meter long and the products were fresh cookie, crafts and clothes locally made. It was great spot for tourist to pick souvenirs. I bought a beautiful long one-piece dress and a jumper from a local designer. I loved both pieces and it's nice to have clothes not from commercial retailer so that I know no one in Perth would wear them. Another friend of mine joined us later the night and it was good fun night. They told me how different the people in GC is compare to other city in Aus. I thought people in Perth were pretty relaxed and casual but apparently the people in GC are in another level and safety is also an issue there. It sounded that they were struggling to get accustomed to it. It made me more appreciative of my life in Perth. Another thing I noticed there was the emptiness of the city. I've been to GC once four years ago and my impression was it was very much like Hawaii. Pretty beach with palm trees, high-rise condominiums, relaxed but colorful and gritter sprinkled in the air in the city with buzz of people. However, the city was very quiet this time. Although, I knew it was not in season, seeing one of the most popular destination in Aus for international tourists with such emptiness was a bit shock for me.
After interesting stay in GC, I took a train going back to Brisbane airport to catch up with my hubby flying from Sydney then went to my hubby's parents place to spend two night with them.We used to visit them once or twice a year, but since their youngest son passed away early this year, I determined to try to visit them more often. It got me think to show our love and support for them as much as we can and to have close relationship with whole family member. We had lovely time together at home and a family dinner with the younger brother's family one night. It was really nice,too.
My IVF process is on hold at the moment due to having to give my body time to get back to normal for embryo transfer. I feel my body is pretty normal now. I recently get back to the once a week fasting and light exercise. My weight is now 49.0kg so got back pretty much.I had my first period three weeks ago which was unusually early and now I'm waiting the second period which will be the cycle for my embryo transfer. Actually, I was planing to visit my friend in Adelaide in early September but now I don't know if I can do it anymore because the timing of my period is unpredictable. People suggest me to relax as much as I can so I should drop it and not even thinking about going away...
Anyhow, all is good :)
Happy weekend for everyone!
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
Day 46 on BSP and Day 20 on IVF
After the last blood test, I've heard that my estrogen went back to normal but I still need to drink lots of water, over 2,5L per day and protein diet. I feel it in my body. The abdominal pain and bloating and the tenderness of breasts has eased and feeling much better lately.
However, one major change since I started IVF is not having a craving for coffee. I've been a proud coffee addict for 20 years. I had to have 2 cups of it at least till a weeks ago then it just disappear. Now, despite the several attempts of enjoying a cup of coffee, I have no craving what so ever and I don't enjoy the taste I used to looooove at all! In fact, the coffee cup is still next to me for over an hour untouched after a sip. It's so weird and miss loving the "ahhh" moment with the aroma and flavor so much. I've heard that ppl change their cravings to different food during pregnancy but I'm not pregant yet. hormone does this? hum... But I guess it's over and it's sad somehow....
I want to find a drink which picks me up and give me " ahhh " moment. I think the time with "ahhh" has been a little highlight of my day for ages so I definitely need it. I hate soft drink and sweet drinks so no coke or hot chocolate I'm not too fond of tea, a bit boring for me but maybe milk teas to start with.
However, one major change since I started IVF is not having a craving for coffee. I've been a proud coffee addict for 20 years. I had to have 2 cups of it at least till a weeks ago then it just disappear. Now, despite the several attempts of enjoying a cup of coffee, I have no craving what so ever and I don't enjoy the taste I used to looooove at all! In fact, the coffee cup is still next to me for over an hour untouched after a sip. It's so weird and miss loving the "ahhh" moment with the aroma and flavor so much. I've heard that ppl change their cravings to different food during pregnancy but I'm not pregant yet. hormone does this? hum... But I guess it's over and it's sad somehow....
I want to find a drink which picks me up and give me " ahhh " moment. I think the time with "ahhh" has been a little highlight of my day for ages so I definitely need it. I hate soft drink and sweet drinks so no coke or hot chocolate I'm not too fond of tea, a bit boring for me but maybe milk teas to start with.
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